And so it begins…

I have no idea what I’m doing here… I have no idea how to engage with live readers, how to start a back and forth communication with strangers (or if that’s even my goal?). I’m not sure what it is I want to tell or ask, if anything at all?

I know that I am UNcertain of so much. I am uncertain of how I became who I am, having started with who I used to be, and I have NO IDEA where that girl went! Not entirely certain I miss her, either… but I wish I could have so much of her back. My kids would probably love the girl I used to be..

I know all the things I used to be or do well, and how frustrating it is to feel those things slip away. I know I’m in autopilot a lot more than I’d care to admit.

I know I’ve got to fight for me before there’s nothing of “me” left in the body I’m carrying around.

I suppose that’s my goal. To figure out who I am now, this new me. This “Mom” me, this “mid-30’s wife” me, this “all those other roles I play to serve other people” me.

And well… I guess I’m putting it all out there for others to maybe stumble across because, well, I’m not sure why. But I can’t be the only mom in the world who has no idea who she is any more, right? Maybe we can find ourselves together.

-M